oh wow.

I haven't been on this in awhile. I like tumblr now.

Well this isnt good-bye ill be back on just not as often.

Bye blogger!

Wow.

I graduated high school.
I didnt think I would see the day.
Wow.
A real life goal completed.

PLUR.

Don't be hypocrites. Practice what you preach. We have 4 days left, what is with all this dumbass retarded drama? After Wedensday you're never going to see each other again so just let it go. Please, can we have these last few days drama free and can we all just get along? No, because wee all have sticks up our asses and have to hold grudges and bring back stupid bull shit. please be mature for 32 hours. Ok, I'm not trying to be Gahndi or Elie Wiesel orthe Dali Lama or anything I just don't want drama and I don't like it when people are mean to each other for no reasons and are starting drama over things that are out of their control and have say in the matter. What ever happened to PLUR? Peace, Love, Unity, Respect. Obviously it has been thrown out the window along with rational thinking, and maturity.

StopthrowinguptheVif youdont practiceitsmeaning.

Trust me, I speak Whale.

I love whales! They are one of my most favorite animals ever! They are the nicest animals ever!

Eye Opener.

Don't take life for granted ever.
Please.
Something shocking just happened and I can't even believe it. I'm speechless.
Its a morbid day.


rip.

Baseball is one hell of a sport.

Hola.

Its been awhile since I have been on this thing, but I have been so busy. I'm in my last 8 days of school and I started a new a job. No moe guarding lives from aquatic dangers anymore. I don't have to look after prepubecent little pricks anymore. Now I deal with annoying people who want the most random shit on their food. Its fun thought, I like it.

Uno Dos Tres Quatro

High School is only 720 days long. I have completed 712 days as of today, Friday May 8,2009. I have 8 more days. I can't believe it went by this fast. It feels like I just went into freshman year like last year. It is really bitter sweet; Leaving High School and going onto college,and becoming an adult, then friends leaving and we're all going on our seperate ways. Even though I didn't get along with people or people didn't like me, I am still going to miss them. Graduation is in 29 days.

College.
Holy shit. I can't wait. I'm majoring in communications; Journalism and I am going to be the next Barbra Walters. So babs, watch your back.

I have to go to class now.

Peace.
XO
Love,
Katie.

Ears.

I have an ear infection.
I haven't had onr of those since I was 7.
On the bright side I got some cool drugs.
Senior retreat tomorrow.
Its bitter sweet.
I have 16 days left.
Then I have to grow up and become an adult.
Let me shit my pants now.

I love this.

"Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours"- Beethoven.



Thats one of his love letters. I absolutely love it. I think its so beautiful and loving and you really could tell that he was in love.Aww Beethoven. Why don't guys like this exist anymore?

I know; because chivalry is dead.

Geheimnis

wenn Sie nur wussten.
Was ich an Sie wirklich dachte.
Heimlich hasse ich Sie.

Ich habe 18 Tage links.

Ich kann nicht warten.

...

Write your own words.

A song to be set free.

I seriously can't remember when I truly was happy. Like, really happy. When I went to the Bahamas this Christmas, we went to this secluded beach and it was gorgeous, I loved it. There was crystal clear water, white sand, beautiful son, warm breeze. I walked along the beach by myself and I loved it. I was truly happy then.

I need to find that again. I haven't been truly happy in a long, long time. People always see me smile, but about 90% of the time its fake. I don't like fake smiles. I just want a real one to come out every once in a while.


I wanna be 7 years old again. I wanna go back to the time when I believed in Santa and happy endings.

Maybe its not my weekend, but its gunna be my year.

I'm sorry I'm not the valedictorian of my class.
I'm sorry I wasn't an honor student.
I'm sorry I didn't do my homework.
I'm sorry I'm not the perfect child.
I'm sorry I'm not a sweet baby angel.
I'm sorry I'm good at dance.
I'm sorry it wasted your money.
I'm sorry your plans for me didn't happen.
I'm sorry I don't like school.
I'm sorry I'm going to community college.
I'm sorry I make you angry.
I'm sorry I'm a pain in the ass.
I'm sorry You hate me so much.
I'm sorry I use profanity.
I'm sorry I crashed the car.
I'm sorry I'm not pretty enough.
I'm sorry I wasn't popular kid.
I'm sorry I don't date athletes.
I'm sorry I have problems.
I'm sorry I'm not the hero.
I'm sorry I failed in your eyes.

I'm done saying sorry. I'm done with being blamed for everything. I'm done with everything.

Like the song says; "Maybe its not my weekend, but its gunna be my year.." I'm going to show you. I will.






I'll soon be free.

If only New York wasn't so far away...

Someone out there is meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He'll smile at you when you tell him, but he'll never laugh at your heart. He'll brush the hair out of your eyes and send you flowers when you least expect it. He'll call you to tell you good night before you get into bed or just because he's thinking about you. He'll be bursting to talk to you each morning, just to hear the sound of your voice. He'll look into your eyes and tell you that you are the most beautiful girl he has ever seen and for the first time in your life, you'll believe it. You may not be his first, last or his only, he's loved before you and may love again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? He isn't perfect and you aren't either, but if he can make you laugh and admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He isn't going to quote you sappy poetry, he's not going to be thinking of you every moment of the day but he will give you a part of him he knows you can break, his heart. So don't hurt him, don't change him, don't analyze him, and don't expect more than he can give. Smile when he makes you happy and let him know when he makes you mad. Miss him when he's not there and love him with all that you have because the perfect man doesn't exist but there's always that man that's perfect for you.

"You're aerodynamically too small..."

My whole life I've always been thin. I only went through one chubby stage and that was when i was 6 months old. I've always been made fun of for it,but not as much until I entered my freshman year of high school. That's when the whispers got louder and the looks got more noticeable. I can't even wear a tank top or a fitting T-shirt without that group of girls looking at me.Its hurtful. Its not my fault I have a fast metabolism and I dance 5/7 days a week for a good 2 hours straight. Its hurtful because this one group of girls actually think I have an eating disorder when in reality i eat like a lineman for a professional football team. But the one thing that really struck a cord with me was last week was my school's "Spirit Week" and one of out theme days was "continent day" we had Europe so I was an Irish dancer and I wore one of leotards from my team costume instead of the full out dress. I was in my forensics class and this one girl from that group was talking to said group and she goes "Katie, how much do you weigh?" I just shrugged my shoulders and said "I don't know." It hurts because I know i don't have anything wrong with me but people think I do. I seriously don't care what people think about me but its the whispers and the looks. It kinda sucks.

Congrats.

on a board that falls apart.


My Week:
boyfriend.
Dance comp.
Audition.
portfolio review;St.John's.
Audition.
Audition.
Portfolio review;SVA
Dance comp.



Fuck yeah being busy.fuck yeah.


oogabooga.

Kates.

A Whole New World...

Disney was incredible. Sooooooo much fun, even if I was sick and started the viscous cycle of sickness. I called myself "patient x" all weekend because I was sick from Tuesday night all the way until today and I got everyone basically sick somewhat. We went to all four parks and
my friend Kristen got me not to be afraid of roller coasters anymore. she told me "If you close your eyes, you only make it worse." She was right so I listened to her and it worked! Ever ride we went on I had my eyes open the whole time. Thank you Kristen.


I got some pretty sick aerial shots from the plane and some shots from the parks. So picture spasm.


^^Marsh mellow fields forever...
I took this awesome picture of Pluto with some little girl and thought it was the most adorable thing ever.










Ok, so there are pictures from the rides I gotta add, like rock-n-roller coaster,tower of terror,expedition Everest,their soo funny. We posed for every single picture.They'll be up soon.


night all.



Theoneswhoneveryawn.


Katie.

Frozen feet and shivering hands.

Going to Connecticut for a weekend filled of irish dance.

Lets do this.


I'm freezing.

I got to pack.

See Yas Monday.

Those fucking Lifetime Movies...

I fucking love them. They make my life go round. their addicting too.

Take Down The Pictures...

I officially started my portfolio today! I developed this really cool picture of a bench and the way it came out with the lighting the picture was taken with and the f-stops and the way was developed made the picture look all distorted and amazing looking. Mrs. T had an idea to do a self portrait piece and she found a mistake print of my senior picture that i did and had the idea to do an Andy Warholesque picture. What I'm doing is taking that picture and turning it black and white and then color toning (putting red,blue, purple ink) it and then coloring my picture and then taking the writing on the background and writing it on the pictures and taking the copies of the original photo and drawing little things on them and randomly putting them in the piece. Its going to be insane.
Shannon gets to model for me tomorrow so i'm going to have even more pictures. Its going to be amazing, I can't wait.




Dress down day tomorrow and Friday because its going to be -1,000,000,000 degrees the next two days. So we get to dress down so we can stay warm? Whatever, I don't have to wear my uniform,and thats pretty awesome.




14 days until Flor Rida! Seniors 09'. This is going to be the best trip ever.Hands down.

dlogyats

Katie.

When Your Soul Embarks...

^^ That was me in school today.

Flo Rida is coming up. can't wait, gunna get my picture with my love Aladdin. 15 days

CT this weekend. First dance competitions of the year. Back to back.Saturday and Sunday.New England you better bring it.

I'm going to go watch the funniest movie of all time. Blades of Glory then go to sleep.


-Katie

"Damn straight I'm good in bed. I can sleep for hours."

Welcome to 2009.

Its been 2009 for 11 days. I'll be 18 in about 7 months.I can't wait.So much is going to happen this year. Graduation.Turning 18.College.Adulthood.Can't wait.I really wanna know where my life is going to take me.who am I going to meet. Where i'm going to live.Its pretty much a big year for me.

I finally went back to dance after a month long break. It was well needed. I have a competition next week.Yay.I haven't practiced in a month so I don't think I'll be doing that well. The only good thing is that my steps are still the same.

I have fans.Their 11.Its cute.Its weird.Its creepy.They are in my schools middle school so i never see them.But when I do you would think some Disney Starlet walked in. Girls, I'm the last person you want to envy or whatever.

I filled out a 2nd college application!!!!!! Go me!!! Now I just have to do my portfolio and I'm good.

I'm going to Flo-Rida! in 17 days. Seniors 09' bitch.I'm scared shitless of planes.

I have 2 new songs that I love. they would be Question by,the old 97's and Whoever she is by, the maine.Go check them out.

I've learned alot about people this passed year and probably will learn alot more until the day I die.I learned who I can trust and who I can't. I learned who my real friends are and dropped the ones who weren't. I found out dancers are bitches. Even though I knew that but I thought the ones i knew were different. Everyones fake.

I'm going to try and write in this more frequently than I do. I'm not saying everyday. Maybe every other day or ever 2 days. I'm just going to try my best.

It snowed yesterday. The weatherman lied. It only snowed like an inch or 2. I can still the grass poking through.But it is hella icy out.I want to snow like 3 feet this winter I want a giant snow storm. I want to make a snowman and make snow angels.

Until we meet again.

Katie.


"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined."-Henry David Thoreau